all i can say right now is that im single and i don't like it. well not yet. i had a good reason for leaving it was obvious and it would be wrong of me not to. he hurt me and lied and worst of all.... i can't say but hopefully i can figure out what to do. im in school waiting for class to start and i just want some solace. finals are closer and i want to get em over with. iwant christmas break so i can take a trip and forget my trouble. gah .. no more running around with sounds of failing happiness begging to be found days past longing to see the seaside breeze. yearning new love that never dies but slowly fades to memories of trees and green lovely leaves.~ gah i erased some of my old entrys. i'll end up getting rid of more later. i need to breathe. ************ Its been a while now and all that has happened has finally sunk in. and the reality of it is that this sucks. so bad. but we're still talking and trying to figure this out. whether or not forgiveness is in me despite the fact that i still love him. i've heard alotta people's advice but the person that understood the most was my friend cristina who simply said follow your heart and give yourself time. we've had alotta talks about everything and im confident that with time this will be reduced to minimal pain and scarring. today is my last class for bio and philosophy awwwwwww