i forgot that working meant dealing with the bad people too. tomorrow is surprise baby shower for lori and dora, they are both having girls! how cute. im too young for babies. my birthday is in 15 days. 20 yrs old. here i come. i promise to sleep on the beach before the year is over !!! im sad today. it happened awhile ago. i just dropped off jr's friend at home. they were at a graduation party. man his street is bumpy!! im think about cutting my hair. im not sure but its something im definatly thinking about i am filled with air. my parents are in a custody battle for my brother's last name. im too old to bother so i know my dad won't give up his rights. its fustrating me. i hate they way she talks about it. trying to write.. can't.... he tries and tries but can't figure out how to find that space to get through.. and she's slipping away silent as her last moments are stringed together in one small word goodbye...