Despite my recent festivities... there are still some things that can make me a little short of happy. i went to work today for 3 hours. it was as short as a shift can go. tomorrow im to the dentist where i'll be given a new appointment where he's taking out my remaining wisdom teeth and that root canal. oh gosh. perfect strangers down the line, lovers out of time, memories unwind. so far i still know who you are.. but now i wonder i wonder who i was this summer so far seems so flighty and without purpose. i need to find something worth my smile i got a letter from my dad further adding guilt to a non resonsive daughter. it seems he found christ. im so happy for him to have something as great to keep his hopes up and something to give him peace. i know he won't like the adoption notice. i'm sure of it. but its what jr wants. i hope so. listening to big orchastrated music is great to wander off into abother dimension filled with greater light. i realize im babbling here so i take me leave ♥ ************* i went to the dentist today. omg. i saw my nerve in my tooth. i realize this is prett gross to be talking about but it was so freaky i mean i didnt have a horrible tooth rotting from a cavity just a hole. he said my teeth are going to be very sensitive and ne little cavity will more than likely not waste any time finding a nerve. so i'm still waiting about possible root canals. the plus side was while he drilled around my tooth i got to hear all of coldplay's new album X & Y and i must say. good job to them. i really liked it. i missed hearing something new. i called into work bc my tooth is still pulsating from the two hours spent there not including my mother's visit. why do all love movies end the same way. they make you feel like some fairy fantasy is the only possible way to have a love and you're supposed to have these moments in your life where there's perfect movement and music just there to accompony those moments. grrr. i took a nap on the couch that has prevented me from sleeping tonight. ive often thought of taking sleeping pills so that i could really fall asleep when i needed to but id rather not. so yea i gotta get something done tonight... well this morning. its 3 am . my usual time to realize its way to late to be doing this again.