this weekend i have realized some things. how can you forgive the one person you trusted that you loved which took alot of soul searching and forgiveness of other things to attain after such a big thing a really big mistake? i don't know if i truly am learning to forigve or if im just forgetting and not thinking about it so i can have a tiny peace of normal. but whatever it is its getting better and im glad i listened to cristina. i need to thank her for not critizing me like some other people. =] i've worked all weekend and it's going to be killer once again. so much sales for christmas that there's soo much mess and money to be spent. don't people know the real reason for christmas. so many people have forgotten what it really is all about. but any way... i have some philosophy essays to write so anyone who is well educated in philosphy let me know .. i need some major help. a couple more days.... ahhhh no more school. i think im going to go visit my family in houston . anyone want to take a road trip??? it'll be fun. texas style umm im sure i've left so much out about my days that i'll end up here at 4 am stresses cause i can't write philosphy.