these past few days are the same as all the other past few days. fighting.. itchines.. crying.. lovey dovey moments.. mad momenets.. sleep-deprived anger and fustration ... grr. i saw you in my dream last night.. with your dark hair and caring eyes.. you smiled at me like you know everything.. you knew the hole inside my heart. and you laughed at me gave me a hug and whispered into my ear.. you said.... what you said to me i could never forget .. the most caring and amazing thing i could hear right now... those words healed my heart and let my soul have this solace ... this peace.. this peace i have it won't last long i know but as soon as my eyes grow weary ... and i fall into slumber.. there you will be.. telling me those words again... i going to call that company today. im going to fix my stupid credit card. im going to save my paychecks and pay it off. i need to switch banks... im going to work today. people are leaving. it's kinda weird only half of the people that work there when i stated are still working ... lots of new faces... it changes all the time how it changes. change ..... what would you change??