so my night class ended up being canceled tonight and it made me happy until i realized taht i would have to go to church. and i had nothing to do before it (any sort of drug that is) so i endured it by writing meaningless words to a boy who will never care. i am branded. i dont know how i feel about that. oh well. i plan on staying 18 forever. no, really. I dont want to know any other time than right now. before sept.26 of 2007, i will be dead. And i dont say this because im super sad, and morbidly depressed. i say this because i really do, deep down, love my life right now, and i dont want it to change. i had to work @ the bloody bullseye tonight (n) and this boy came in, gave me a hug and asked for my number. WTF?! might i add that this boy is the BROTHER of my ex boyfriend. that wouldnt be that bad but he is also a super crazy christian. pfff....wut would he want with a girl like me? Aw, i guess it is a kind gesture, trying to save my soul an all. But i gave my soul to jared, and then britta had it for a while. and who knows wehre its floating about lately. me and t went to the park today, and talked and swang on the swings. i love being a kid with him. i love laughing. i wish i didnt work at BIxBys tomorrow. i want to hang out and have fun and figure out life, then laugh at all the deep conclusions. i want a lover i dont have to love...but ONLY ONLY if it stays loveless.