days like today should never happen. i didnt breathe fresh air until about two in the afternoon. i was in my pajamas until about 3:30. i watched a lot of movies dealing personality disorders, specifically schizophrenia. i watched "A beautiful Mind" with the directors commentary and once without. then i watched the last commentary on "Fight Club" i then finished it off with a childhood favorite, "Drop Dead Fred". ///im dealing with an awkward mix of emotions right now this is indeed a very awkward time in my life. i want the weekend very badly. I hope that on saturday i get fucked up in some way. I kinda just wanna be sedated. i kinda just want to die. Life is boring. and my mind is chaotic. i want acid. Does anyone out there have some LSD for me?? :: Im not your way out ::