Driving down teh gravel road im used to running on, i always know where the five mile mark is, and it only means another five dollars when it used to mean some sort of achievement there are road signs that glare in my eyes when the sun hits them right even though im wearing my big white sunglasses. and the roads go nowhere-they lead to nothing. i exhale and the bumps through the speakers are in sync with my heartbeat. do you think its fine to have to take a pill to feel better? i am better left for dead. because i am not worth saving, im not as good as i can seem. but im not sad about it, i accept my fate. and im going to make dying fun.