i have been speculating the circumstances surrounding this seemingly convulated relationship. Someday, i am hoping to be more than just a sum of my parts...someday i hope to be whole. I will know myself fully. the pain killers are kicking in. I like it. There i go again, running off the track i originally set my mind to. The last couple of days have been brimming with prominence, and i am enraptured with myself. Altough i am delighted with this present emotion, i am well aware that it is momentary. uh. mind is going to mush I have become aware of my hidden talent to manuevr my surroundings so that they fit into my likeness. its a terrible art to practice, but i practice well. the lilting voice of indescioun summons me into her corridor, her voice is soothing and warms my insides. I cannot decide, for if i do, this lulluby will end.