holy hell how do we always find ourselves in similar predicaments? anyway My little cross addiction is turning into a serious problem (go figure) -shoplifting. i cant stop, i do it without even knowing. it was fun and humorous at first but ive almost been caught twice in the last month. i dont think i really need a misdeaminor under my belt along with every thing else. also...my doctors are pending on an "impulsion disorder" diagnosis to go along with my bipolar I . and to make my life even easier, my mom called me yesterday morning (my biological mom) and informed me that they have found some abnormal tissue in one of her breasts. wich isnt an extreme cause for alarm but it could or could not turn into cancer or be there already so she has to go back in a week and run some more test. fucking fabulous....so many years without her and so many years not getting along..and now what the fuck am i supposed to do ? whoever runs this fucking world im spinning in really needs to show his/her face . i have a thing or two to say to em... lately other ppls happiness has really been pissing me off. like i hear a group of friends laughing and i wanted to shoot all of them right in the face. god im so disturbed. another reason to hate the winter : it keeps me even further from you.