my head hurts, my mind is racing, i think i need a drink...or a smoke, or a pill...but no im done with all that poison. or i really want to be. i admited myself because i dont trust myself anymore, i know enough to know that i have no self control, i find it very hard to be sober because ive overwhelmed myself with unlimited pounds of work and such, I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT I HATE i just want the meds to kick in and the drugs to leak out, and my seratonin and norepinephrine to rise to "normal" functioning levels. i want to erase my memmory. i want my brain back, i want my life back.