I've gone and done it....i fucked things up big time~ and there's no going back...i've lost the one and only man i've ever cared about so much we had something adn now it's over...it's over for good...it hurts it hurts so fuckin bad...i don't know what to do anymore! this really fucking sucks....i dont' what happened but it's all my fault! so whatever. My life's gone down to hell...all i wanted was to be loved the same way i love the same person...but i guess 1 yr and a 1/2 is too much for some people...I thought this was reall it was real...we invisioned our life together in the future...but now it's all fucking shit I dont' know what to do..."let it go, let it be" is what they say but u can't let go the love of your life...you can't everything be....I've done everything for him...i gave him almost everything to him....but that's just what guys want...everything! and that's exactly what i did...he fucking stole all my respect from me...everything...and now look...it's all hell...nothing more nothing less...:(...I know i have to let go...but ti's going to be hard considering everything ive done for him considering what i took from myself to give to him...but whatever it's done and over with all i can do is pray....and look forward to the better....it's so fucking hard...damn men...i thought we had something....we both had it....but i'm done with everything...goodbye to all that is done...love and butterflies...Riah Lee