Oh man today i went to gladys house it was fun. well my cousin came over with her kids man they scream so much but their so cute. I started to cry today i felt very emotional and it sucks. I dont feel like im ever getting my parents trust ever again so im just going to stop trying. anyways the thought of going to college scares me and i dont think my parents are going to treat me like a grown up. Maybe ill just fuck up even more since i cant fix anything in this family i dont know i just feel like shit right now.I cant hold on anymore i need HELP! Peace Out Love Janis