Well this week has been good. Had a lot of homework that the teacher gave us plus all this quizes every single time we go in. But im happy everything is good. I kinda go into a big argument with my mom on saturday but i mean she over reacted to what i said. I know i would be sad if my daughter said the same thing but i would lern to let go. But anyways the next day things where cool between us. Im starting to feel alone. I think im ready for a bf now. But i dont think anyone likes me. Im starting to feel depressed, ugly and so on. Whatever. I cant help not listening to love and sad songs lol and writing sad poetry. I dont want to be alone anymone. I dont have anything that motivates me anymore. The only thing that im doing good in is school. Other than that theres becoming more fights at home and i think my anger is taking over me. I do consider myself beautiful in different ways but not physical. Probably its just in my head. But i cant always say whatever to everything that bugs me right? ( i had a dream of johnathan my ex ex and i guess i could say i still miss him its going to be a year since he broke up with me in a few days i cant help it but im counting down the day ive been since that day that.....) Peace Out Love Janis