My weekend was good on friday i went to my cousins house with my sister we had a kick back it was dope. It was my first time getting really drunk and well i did have fun but not when i started barfing and knocked out when i hit my head on the tile lol. Saturday i had a mean hang over worse of the worse head aches ever so i just stayed home watched a movie and chilled. On sunday i saw the second movie it was cool then i got ready and went to the picnic with my cousin and mom. I had a blast with my cousins kids i love them so much. So today i was suppose to go to glendale community college to the admission office and talk to them and see what my ID# is cause i called and they cant find me on the computer. But that didnt happend at all so i might go tomarrow in the morning and as soon as i have that i have to take the test and then schedule my classes and im all done haha. I ended up going to the doctors with my brother we talked to the specialist and he told us that it sounds like my brother has ADD and well i feel really bad. He gave him medicine and if it dosent work then hes going to have to talk to a scicologist to see whats wrong with him. I dont know how to help my brother i cant cry as much as my heart wants to i dont know why im holding it all inside. gladys is having some though time and is giving me alot to think about i wish i knew what was going through her mind. But hopefully everything is going to be ok. Im starting to feel alone again the alone that u cry yourself to sleep and start to realize whats wrong with you and what your missing in life. The truth is i know whats wrong and i dont want to tell anyone cause im scared. Well im off again to my world of fantasies. Peace Out Love Janis