Im pushing myself away from my friends (well thats how i feel) i just want to be alone for a while i think im sinking in my depression again. I dont go to gladys house anymore like u use to every week i hardly call her now i dont talk to anyone but my family. Im not sure why ive been acting like this im not open about things like i was before. I keep a lot to myself that i want to let out but i cant cause im afraid of what people might say or how they might look at me and react to it. Ive been sad these cuple of weeks. When i got the job i cried cause i felt like a loser cause i couldnt get anything right i though maybe getting a job will make me happy but im not happy at all theres something missing and i dont know what it is. well thats all for now. Peace Out Love ZO