Today me and my sister baby sitted terry. It was pretty fun hes a cool kid but man hes really fuckin hyper.hes like a monkey jumping all over the sofas and stuff, running all over the house. So yeah i made breakfast and lunch for him joey and letty. Letty was really tired she came home like at 630am went to take care of my cousins kids. My cousin went partying with her friends and she came fuckin late man coming home at that time when you have children, thats just not right. My sister even told her that she needed to be back early to sleep and wake up to take care of Terry. And she also told her of shes said that she over did it and took advantage and that she dosent want her doing that again next time she dose her a favor taking care of her kids. Well yeah i feel really bad for my sister man. You should see her ass there mad scary. Shes been up for like 30 hrs. Well my mom is getting ready to go to work again she leaves at 5 and she'll be back around 11pm. My sister is also leaving around 6 im guessing not sure. Shes going to take us to rent movies so thats good atlest me and joey wont be bored. I fuckin feel really weird today. Like really really shy. I havent been talking much. Been really quite i guess my sister noticed and asked me what was wrong. Its really strange because im always talking lol and u know im always having a good time. I dont know i just feel like a retarded. I have that feeling when ur in elementary and the kids are picking on u and the imberstment feeling. I hate that. My sister told me that i need counseling she knows i do. I got my own little issues that i need help with. I told her that before and my family too but i guess they didnt want to spend money on them and aranged a family meeting. which never works but whatever. Peace Out Love Janis