yeppppppp we all knew i would get sad again. we allll knew it. just wish SOMEONE cared for me a little more then they pretend to. so stupid. my eye is like infected because i switched my mascara and my eye liner. the eye liner is a really shitty brand. and now my eye is red, itchy, and gross. sarah is here! shawna and i rode her bike in the rain to her house at 9 in the morning. (oh it was so beautiful. im going to remember how pretty it was forever..) im so happy she is back shes so much fun. we went to the movies. and i saw some people. we saw meet the fockers. it was alright. now i am feeling... antisocial.. lol. ive had too much of people for the last few days. i just want to be alone... or with him... watch a movie with him.. lay my head in the area between his shoulder and neck and chest. the comfiest spot in the world. just like old times. gosh my thoughts are really scattered. ... i hope new year's will be fun.. ryans party. shawna keeps inviting people, and like... she has no right to, and i try to explain it to her, but like.. i just end up feeling like a bitch. i am a bitch. im really maniplative and im mean. bahh. towards the end of the day i just wanted to be home. my eye hurts. i want him. and now i am sitting here on the computer in my comfiest pajamas waiting for his phone call.. waiiiiittting.