im going to start writing in this again. its so anonymous. i havent kept a true diary for like more than a year now and all my life i have. its weird. but i havent really had an urge to until right now. im so happy its summer now. one more year of highschool to go. time flies. im in hawaii right now. im trying to get a good tan and get in good shape. better shape. but i just ate some spaghetti so that isnt helping. i swim laps every night. its a lot of fun. the wind here is so warm. its not like in ventura where a breeze gives you the chills. here its like a blanket and it makes you feel sleepy and comfortable. and the waves at the beach. i can stare at them forever.. but the sand sticks to you and is hard to rub off. i have 2 best friends now. their names are reem and sarah. sarah had to move to kansas recently but we talk on the phone almost everyday. reem is going to college in august and she is seriously my other half. i also have a boyfriend. who is amazing. he is the complete opposite from my last boyfriend (who i now hate). his name is david, and ive talked about him before. i met him at a party like in december and we just kept on talking and seeing eachother around and then we got to know eachother more and more and now this 2 weeks is the first time when i havent hung out w/ him on the weekend since like.. february. hes truthful and mature and is one of the most honest people i know. he takes the whole "i love you" thing really serious. one time i told him awhile ago and he said "you know thats a really serious thing and we havent been together that long. i know were gonna be together for a long time but i dont think we should be saying that right now" it hurt... but a couple nights ago before i left he said it. i cant explain how it felt to hear him say that..... its like everything got in slow motion.. i almost felt like crying or something because i was that happy.. and it just feels so good to know that its real. he wouldnt say it otherwise. people say it so loosely now a days. half the time when they say it its really lust.. half the time they just want to get in your pants. like 3% of the time its real...