whats up! sooo things have been weird. its like they havent been very good but right now im in a good mood. i think its cus i just got off the phone w/ shawna. i might go to the aejis show w/ her and chelsea and charlotte. for some reason that sounds like so much fun. idk why! lol well i do love chelsea and shawna. well i do right now (im bipolar when it comes w/ my friendssss) but yhea i was going to this party w/ taylor but i think id rather go to the show! even though i dont like ventura shows anymore! why? cus all these lameys go now. i remember in 8th grade when there wasnt as many kids there as there is now. but that makes sense. considering the main people who listen to these bands are kids. and the "underground" music scene is no longer underground in fact its quite popular. soooooo its pretty cool when i dont make sense ha????? uhm anyway things w/ me and taylor wow also bipolar. its like things are going GOOD. but like.. at the same time, the things hes doing, choices hes making, they are getting worse and worse. does that make sense? its like its a sign or something? sajdhasdfjh gr i wish i was better at writing how i feel. HES CHANGING. maybe thats whats the matter? hes just making different choices. ones that are bad for him. :(((( makes me sadddd. oh yhea ps if he gets accepted to el camino, which i think he will, then tomarrow is his last day at foothill. worse and worse i tell you. ive been doing good on my diet for like 2 weeks now but i havent lost anymore weight which makes me angry. but then again, the only time i weigh myself is at night, and they say you weight like 1-3 pounds heavier later in the day, specially if you just ate. so taylor wasnt there at lunch. and like i mention he might not go to foothill anymore. but i was much more social today at lunch. for some reason. man im just so confused. i really love him so much though i wish he was here and i wish i could always make him happy and i wish i could just always be happy with everyting and d;safjhdafjasdf im tired and overly stressed out w/ homework w/ the fricken 10th grade proj i fricken hate it I FUCKING HATE FOOTHILL.