lol i love how i havent written in this for like ever. online diaries are so lame. hah. i never ever express how im really feeling, or the important things going on in my life. whatevs this weekend was ok. nothing compared to last weekend. i wish i could go back in time 1 week ago and like relive that night. i totally took it for granted. i want more then anything for this to work out. you have no idea. he lives so close and hes so fucking cool it would just be like wonderful. why am i like this? i never used to be so dependent. ps im not talking about taylor. ew @ all. its really exciting cus im finally over him. i like eric. i want him soo bad. das;ldsakjdfdsafl;kj. i wanted to see him this weekend i just want it to work out. what the fuck ever my throat hurts im home sick from school which is why im writing in this i want the weather to turn cold already im pretty sure i have strep throat kissing dirty boys = a no no. haha i wish the show wasnt cancelled last night and that i could have seen him. why the fuck does he occupy all my thoughts all of them ugh is this is lame bye