im in a bad mood right now because im trying to do good on my diet LIKE IM ALWAYS FRICKEN ON ONE AND IT ONLY LASTS 3 DAYS THEN I GAIN ALL THE WEIGHT I LOST + A BILLION POUNDS i wanted to do pilates and i cant find the fricken dvd goddd and i know its my fault too! cus i alway find things like that and i put it in stupid places then i cant find it. gosh! well anyway i havent written this in awhile. idk i think im just kind of'over' the whole online diary thing. ill just write in it when i really feel like it. things have been ok lately i sopose. taylors been grounded for the last 3 weeks. but we went to urban cafe together last night. im excited for valentine's day. he says he has a surprise for me. k guys i really want to lose weight. i was thinking, and man this is super nerdy, but i kind of want to go on the track team or whatever. lol. i think the seasons over. but anyway would get me in shape, and it would give me something to do, look foward too. motivate me. everyday for me is the same. i got to school, then come home. i want to but i probably wont. im so stupid && lazy.. godd i wish i could do pilates right now lol :(