im real sad not sad but theres something clearly wrong im so sick of feeling used, like im only good for one thing, like for once maybe itll be something different this time, that the guy is interested its not just a fling. it never is, i should never think that again. i should never get near a guy again. i should never let a guy get near me again. i should never do this again. even if i dont like him that much, i put it in my head, hey, maybe this guy is interested, and its always in the back of my mind... but he never is. the phone rings i think its it, it never is. its always on my mind it never goes away i just dont know i wish i wasnt like this i wish i didnt get attached i wish i could find the right guy thats all i want for christmas. a decent guy