Do you ever feel like ur in a movie. As tho life isn't actully real? I dunno. But like sometimes school isn't real. It's a movie. People act a part. it's as tho we are placed into a movie screen and told.... heres what i want u too do. When i was comming out of one of my classes.... infatuation was there. Like just standing there. It was a james dean/ jake ryan kind of thing. Like the cool dude just standing there. It was ultra weird. I wanna be molly in sixteen candels. I wanna be with jake ryan. WHy can't life really be like a movie. where the underdog ALWAYS wins. GRRRR. So yeah im not really into him ne more. I still like that one loser. yes and i dun think i can ever stop loving.... " him" it's like impossible. There is just this vibe u kno. like i mean.... somehting is obviously keeping me into him. Hes not perfect. He's not that smart. He's gorgeass. He can be really nice, and sweet. and when he smiles it's like i dunno hard hard hard to explain. But it's almost perfect. Like.... a dream. He has amazing eyes. They are amazing. Like the color of them change with his clothes.... and they are just soooooo amazing. I thought i was ova him... wrong again. He's not acting weird ne more either. He's actually talking to me again. It's perfect... maybe not perfect but it is somethinhg. something good and kind. Lol. yeah. i sound like a ditz alot. Sorry. ALi