Yesterday i left school early. Because i got sick. Now i have so much stuff to make up in Bio its terrible. THe worst day to ever not go to school. Last night i watched pirates of the carribean for the first time since may. It was amazing. My father was actually getting into it and when i turned it off he got pissed. i made me laugh. Mostly cause my dad usually falls asleep when my movies are on. I still feel sick and tired and i feel like i just wanna sleep. Tomorrow is friday. I wanna go to the play. That would be beyond amazing. Maybe even a lil orgasmic. Than saturday i might be going to see emery. I have no clue tho. I have to clean my entire house and do all my hmwork and wash all three cars this weekend. This is what i have to do everyweekend if im going to have a car and for my parents to pay for my insurance and gasoline. So whatever, Ill do it so i can have my own car. Blah on them. - I try to find the words to say to you but I can't find them; so I'll just keep my mouth shut. I can't say what will make you go way because I don't want you to leave. But I can't see you and you won't hear me. I can't hold you anymore. To my surprise I open up my eyes and I hear your voice and I hear your lies, but I still want to be the one you dream about when you're lying in bed and you scream and shout that I should have been the one that was there and you should have been the one that cared, but I guess its too late and we're on bad terms but I've got to admit that it still hurts. So here I am again always stuck in this situation, I guess you could say that I messed up. If you go, I don't know if I can handle being alone. - Omg i didnt even say that The Oc is tonight. I might post Again just For laughs... O Boy. The Oc isnt on next weekend prob cause its thanksgiving. Ok that sorta makes sense. i give them props. Ok well Goodnight Ali