Yeah i didnt make Pmea... I was so angry and mad and stuff. i dunno i guess i sorta thought i could have made it. i dunno it just makes me really sad. I feel like i fail at everything. At school relationships friends talking to people everything i was in band class and like that thought just struck me. I was like wow i am a failure yeah than i started to tear up a little bit. i like yep i failed at that friend and i failed with that boy and oh yeah i failed at this. What the heck. the one thing im actually good at i fail at. Im a Failure. and it sucks. I hate my mofo life. It sucks so much ass. Dang i hate hate hate it. Yeah and so i went to the gym and that was fun i feel like i got a terrific work out. Haha i listened to Nsync... woot i rock at the world. Im sorry but nsync will always be in my heart. I mean i grew up with them and they have songs that like remind me of the old days. Yeah well i dont want wednesday to be like a bad day because i cant take ne more bad days. monday really was a pretty good day besides the whole Pmea thing but i mean what are u gonna do. i guess im just gonna practice or somehting more i dunno.... i dont have ne friends. I feel like i walk through the hall like alone or somehting. like i could be with all these people but like i feel alone. Like i dont feel this alot but just today i did. Tomorrow im thinking of dressing slut. i dunno it kinda feels like slut day tomorrow. Haha wow now im like acting really stupid... yeah i dun understand myself ne more.... Tonight is gilmore girls One tree Hill and Veronica MArs and Laguna Beach. omg Laguna Beach is so great. Steven is so hott and Lc is Cool. Kristen is such a bitch tho... shes always complaining... yeah i hope steve ends up with Lc cause shes cool. And than Veronica mars is a excellent show... i dunno if ne one is watching it but its so good. yeah im excited for that. i have two tests tomorrow in social studies and than in bio. Im scared for the Bio one cause i have no freckin idea what the fuck i am doing. i better go make flash cards that would be extra dope... yeah well today sucked so im gonna go study Kisses ALi