Today was an intense day... I had like five hundred tests. I had my american cult test and like i think i did ok on it. The essay question i had no freckin idea what it was about but i basically bullshitted my way through it lol. I had a bio test which totally kicked ass and i think im gonna get a great grade on that. yeah im not too happy about english right now and i dunno about nething else. Im so ready for it to be Homecomming. i dunno i just like getting ready and hanging out u kno... its like one day u can feel like a princess.... its Hott. But neways. Yeah like i had a breakdown today after band.... i just started crying in my moms car.... like i felt so alone. I told her about how i felt like i was a failure and i couldn't do nehting. I told her how i dont have anyfriends... and how im not good at anything.. I dunno i just felt like really sad and terrible and stuff. I kno alot ofthe stuff i said wasn't true but like i felt like it at the time. Plus i had been at band for like 2 hours and my mouth killed me. My lips are swollen cause they are so like chapped. Plus i was supposed to go to flogging molly with roy and sandy but i couldn't cause of band cause i didnt wanna like skip it and make up some excuse u kno what im saying? Yeah so i was just pissed. I went to open Youth room and fic and chad were there. it was cool. man sometimes i just dont wanna be hurr ne more. Well im like Emo right now Kisses Ali