mixed emotions of today i feel like im going back to that cycle i had before. during break and like before that. Like that sad thing. I dont want to go back into that. The way i sorta kno taht im going back into that is because of this diary. I like cant really update when im happy. i have nothing to say. But now... i sorta feel like im slipping back into that state. And i dont want that to happen... ever ever again. I have alley valley for 2 days which is like practice for like 8 hours each day. I do not want to go. Blah that sucks. Plus i miss school and all this work and stuff. Oh well. I get a medal. Yeah. GO me. i feel blah right now .............