Its my 100th Entry. Thats Alot of Entrys and thoughts about my pathetic life. So I figured id reflect on my life in the past year- cause it is the big 100th... Lol Ok so when i started this diary, i was in a depressed state of mind. I had just found out something. and me always jumping to conclusions about stuff. yeah but i was totally depressed during christmas time last year. I def. dont want that happening again. Than i started having this huge big infatuation with this kid. Yeah is majoly a hottie and stuff. But i couldnt talk to him. I just remember me like always waiting to see him in the hallways and stuff. Now hes in one of my classes i sorta talk to him. Hes like quiet its odd. But yeah, i totally talked about my orgasmic experiences about him. Lol than like nothing really happened to me. Than i went to williamsburg. Yeah its where everything started. I guess u could say where happiness and sadness started. It was amazing. At the same time Than summer came i went to Va. Which was amazing i had so much fun. I called him while i was there. I realized i liked him. it was weird. Working on the jobs and stuff. and it just came to me. One day i had a really bad day and i couldnt call him. Maybe thats when i realized how much i did like him. LIke true feelings and stuff. warped tour we started going out. So yeah summer came. summer went. Things ended. becuase of me being stupid. Than in september i did stuff. Which i now regret. and people i cared most about hated me. Which i hate. Becuase when people hate you when is that ever fun. Its not. DUH. Yeah but things worked out for a while. Than ... October. Yeah. October was difficult. Started out amazing. than i didnt get into pmea. maybe taht started it. Hmcomming dance was ok. like i had fun and everything. But other things conflicted with that... and yeah stuff. Underoath- thats all im gonna say. I seriuosly was happy. So happy. Wow im really self absorbed. i just realized that. Yeah. need to work that Than november dont wanna even talk about because yeah... Depressed again. December now. I dunno people its been difficult. But my birthday is in one week. Sweet sixteen Mofos. Im so excited Tomorrow cam colv and don are comming over and were gonna watch sixteen candles and play taboo. Holla( kalya smack me) than sat. is the family party.... And than I dunno.... I love You.