I hate this!! Me and him broke up over a year ago! I'm so used to telling people how break ups just take time but I'm not even trying to help myself. Well I saw him yesterday and I was fine. Then last night I was thinking about it and I remembered how me and him were gonna go to the symphony back when we were dating but we never had the chance. This weekend I have to go for my music class and I thought about inviting him to go with me. My friend Carlos was gonna go with me but he has to go the Marine Basse this weekend and I don't wanna go alone. Well I didnt want to call him but I eventually did. He asked what time is was and stuff, then he finally said yes. I as so shocked...Then He asked the date again and turns out one of his friends is gonna have a party. Then he told me he was sorry and he wasn't sure if he wasnt gonna go, that he would get back to me...He never did! I waited all day and nothing. I was very anxious and wanted to know if he was gonna go or not. I sent him text messages all day and nothing. Finally at about 6, he wrote back and told me to come outside but i wasnt home. I told him I was around the block but i was really about 10 minutes away. I hauled ass to get home and when I got there he was gone. I was kinda hurt but hey I didnt really expect him to be there. In many ways I did but oh well. After that I felt a little down just cause I thought he was gonan be there and he wasnt. Well I got in one of my emotional moods and I was about to cry. I had to get out of the house so I went to the lake. I sent him another message just saying how I needed to know and how i was fustrated and stuff. He never wrote back. He finally called and asked what was wrong and I just told him. We talked for about a minute but he never told me if he was gonna go or not. I hate this cause we are nothing and its taking so long for me to realize that! I dont know whats wrong. I don't want to be with him...I think in many ways i do but then again he has brought nothing but pain to my life and as much as I hate to admit it I still love him and thats never gonna change. This song relates so well...I dont know why I let myself worry and I wonder what i did, but i did nothing. I'm just so crazy for trying to make him have feelings and I'm crazy for crying cause hes not worth my tears anymore! And I dont know why I love him so much!