Well my grandma has been in the hospital for about 3 days. She went to the ER wednesday and shes been there ever since. She has surgery and now shes recovering. Right now, shes a little out of it, but we're all hoping shes gonna get better over the weekend *say a prayer for my grandma* Ever since all this happened with my grandma, I've been taking care of my cousins. Yesterday while takin care of them, I got a phone call from Sergio... yes i know, I shouldnt be talking to him, but oh well. We talked for a while, almost 2 hrs. He asked what I was doing today and then he invited me to go see his new house. I didnt know if i would be able to go cause i was planning on going to the hospital, but this morning my mom left me... so I decided to go for a little while. When i got there, he gave me a tour then we kinda just kinda hung out and talked for a while. We made lunch and in the process he saw my scar and i guess he freaked out a little. He didn't know why it was there and i think he was a ittle scared to ask questions... I didn't want to scare him away but he tired to talk to me about it, it didnt help, nothing every really does. Well after that, we went to his room to watch tv and then he put the moves on me, which wasnt very surprising cause he always does it! Gr! It kinda makes me mad cause he always puts these thoughts into my head. He said he missed me, that he missed us... and in a way i miss him too. I miss the guy he used to be and the way he used to treat me before everything went down. He asked how my family would feel if we got back together and i didn't know what to say. Like i know its not gonna happen, i dont want it to. But then again, a small part of me wants something like that again. I mean, there is always gonna be feelings for him just cause we've been through so much. I think we could be friends but if hes gonna pull stuff like he did today, then i dont know... I miss him, i hate to say it but I really do, ahhhhhh! I told him i'd talk to him in 3 months cause we usually dont talk for months at a time, but he said it was different and that he would call me tomorrow. I dont know, its not like him call me on a daily bases anymore... I'm not gonna wait for a phone call. Ive been listening to this song for a while, its my favorite on the cd... and the first few lines make me think of him. you'll see why. But after tonight, like the whole song makes me want to think about him! I'm so confused, it sucks! Ashlee Simpson - Undiscovered Lyrics Take it back, take it all back now The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips, I miss that now I can't try any harder than i do All the reasons i gave, excuses i made for you Are broken in two All the things left undiscovered Leave me empty and left to wonder I need you All the things left undiscovered Leave me waiting and left to wonder I need you Yeah I need you Don't walk away Touch me now how i wanna feel Something so real, please remind me My love, and take me back Cuz im so in love with what we were Im not breathing im suffocating without you Do u feel it to All the things left undiscovered Leave me waiting and left to wonder I need you All the things left undiscovered Leave me empty and left to wonder I need you Yeah I need you When im in the dark and all alone Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door, Its then i know my heart is whole Theres a million reasons why i cry Hold my covers tight and close my eyes Cuz i dont wana be alone All the things left undiscovered Leave me waiting and left to wonder I need you All the things left undiscovered Leave me empty and left to wonder I need you, I need you Cuz i cant fake and I cant hate But it's my heart Thats about to break You're all i need I'm on my knees Watch me bleed Would you listen please I give in I breathe out I want you, theres no doubt I freak out, I'm left out Without you, im without I'm crossed out I'm kicked out I cry out I reach out Don't walk away Don't walk away Don't walk away Don't walk away Thats really long, sorry! Well till next time!