I was just talking to Ivy about how much boys suck ass! I finally thought i found a guy who wasnt only in it for sex, but I was wrong. It sucks! I mean, he was nice, and it seemed like we wanted the same things, but then all of that changed in like a matter of seconds! Like we still talk, but its just different. I see him completely different now! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! Guys...why do you only have one thing on your mind!!!! Ivy said we need to go boy shopping...for me of couse, lol! I told her I have to lose 100 lbs first! I have a hippo on my keychain, only cause one time my friend Gabe called me a hungry hungry hippo at lunch. That was before I was chunky, so i dont know why he said that...but I feel like now, I'm kinda living up to the name. It sucks being me, I hate feeling so ugly! I'm gonna be in a wedding in like 5 months and I can't walk down the isle looking like this, I just cant! My mom is making me go on Weight Watchers with her. She has lost 15lbs so far. I think, if i do it, i would lose the weight fast cause I'm kinda tall. Besides, my mom doesnt work out, she just eats well. I think I can do it. I just want to be attractive again. Then all the guys are gonna come running and i'm not gonna want them! lol, jk! I'm dying inside...And nobody knows it but me *tear*