something reallyyy weird happened..i had a notebook with all my poems and stuff...and its gone!! mayb i hid it so well i dont remember where or mayb someone took it oh well...those poems were nothing but memories from feelings unwanted..so i guess its better this way...start a new notebook with more happy thoughts..ill take a lifetime to fill it if i want it with happy thoughts though...im bored as hell...im hungry...im sad...i want to write something but im just too numbed to think...or feel...im cold..its raining =)...i love rain...i want a boyfriend...i want a real friend...i want to smile...i want to wake up and live in a house where my family's alright, my parents dont shout to each other every fucking minute, where problems don't mean try to kill myself cuz they have fuckin no solution, where someone tells me hey u look really nice today...or something like that...whatever..later..brenda