i'm at a friends house and its like 8 in the morning and i'm not sleepy.at all. everyone just went to sleep but something's messed up in my head and i get really hype when i dont sleep so im gonna write to see if i get sleepy. its gonna b boring so unless u have lots of time to kill dont read it.. soooo....o yeah yesterday i showed beto the poem i did for him..he cried =)...i supposed that was good until i started realiiing (this computer has no s...the one for sebra yeath wtf))...anyways i started realiing it may cause problems with his girlfriend...and i laughed haha...but later we went to the movies and both of them were there and they were all together..like it didnt cause problems..i know thats selfish but i wanted him so much to get confused and say ohh brenda i want u for so much than a friend or something...i think he might have been idiot enough to think the poem was about friendship...or felt guilty enough to make himself believe it...anyways at the movies they were like almost one in top of the other...GROSS...after the movie we went to buy an icecream and he tried to talk to me but i was like yeah...i couldnt look at them..HOW THE FUCK IS HE E (this computer doesn have + either...the one in + men YEAH WTF )....ok here it comes once again..HOW THE FUCK IS HE E+PECTING ME TO TALK TO HIM WHEN HE IS WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND JUST AFTER I SHOWED HIM THE FUKIN POEM!! yeahhh it made me mad....anyways we came to my friends home and the girlfriend slept over!! err...when she slept i was seriously thinking about getting a knife and well...get down to business...jahaha no jjust kidding...but she was talking sooo much about him..FUCK! anyways i feel better today bcu (this computer has no fukin letters!!!1) whatever.i feel better today as i was saying bcus last night i kinda brainwashed myself and got to the conclusino that even if he is my best friend ...hey i got plenty of awsome friends (yeah...i dunno about the awsome part either)...(yeah wtf with me im commenting my own entry!)...anyways....i got plenty of "awsome" friends...i dont need him to be hurting me... i mean if hes friendship is hurting so much it had to b worth it...and it is not bcus we are nothing but friends...so NO... mm... im bored its about 8 39 and this girls arent fukin up yet..i tried to wake them up but one of them threw me a flying shoe on the head...so im not going back there unless im mentally prepared to be physially hurt... later..!!