yesterday night i was talking to a friend and i felt like doing something to myself..i felt so worthless and so ugly and so bad...anyway i told her and she made me think...she said that if i saw myself like that everybody else will..and i dont know she told me stuff many people have said bfore but i dunno why this time im gonna follow her advice...im gonna love myself..its time...im too hard on me...i dont let anyone love me thats what she said...that i find hard to believe cuz i would give anything for someone to love me...but i guess shes right..i mean she is really really happy...and i want to be ...i really want that im tired of crying all the time and feeling ulgy and hating what i see in the mirror...im tired of writing suicidal poems and tired of feeling worthless..i wanna be someone for myself...i dont care if im not anyone for others..later..