im bored as hell..and i think im getting a cold...fuck...im getting a cold in the middle of summer...thats not cool...i figured out that i can forget ben...i really can cuzz i wont see him ever again in my life and i probably wont ever talk to him again...me talking to him depends on alan...and he hasnt answered the email i sent him so...it will be easy to forget him..the thing is i dont want to...then i will have no one to think about...yeah im fucking weird...anyways i just wanted to see what day was today so i clicked on new entry cuz this shit says it...but i dont know what to write about..and i didnt remember i wrote an entry yesterday...so...later... IF ANYONE LIVES IN REDLANDS, CALIFORNIA...PLEASE WOULD U PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOW!?! THE LOVE OF MY LIFE LIVES THERE!! HAHA (THAT WAS NOT ME SAYING THAT...) i wrote this entry today...so i will just add something... the weirdest things happen..i had a bracelet that i wanted to give to ben (yeah pathetic I KNOW ) because ive had that bracelet for years ...and just today a friend broke it :(...and then i was like thinking about him and i was outside and i thought well at least we're looking at the same moon right now...and i started looking for the moon and then a friend told me hey have u noticed theres no moon today? we'll have a new moon tomorrow...and thats right because yesterday the moon was really tiny..but why did he said that exactly when i was looking for it to feel a little better that i still had some sort of connection with ben...:(...im so sad...and then my dad started with his shit again SHIT I WANNA DISAPPEAR