my parents still fight all the time and i think they might split up..and just when i thought like my family was the worst how could they do something like that...a friend called me..and she told me she has a friend who lives with her aunt bcuz her mom was a single mom and she didnt want to take care of her..so she gave her away to her sister and the girl sees her mom like every now and then when she goes to her sister's house ..but hse lives with her aunt...and i got myself into perspective...my family isn't that bad at all..i mean i have a family..and then i started thinking ...and it really doesnt matter that i dont have a boyfriend..i mean i have like so many friends...and most of them are boys and they are like brothers to me...so why would i need a boyfriend??...so why do i hate myself so much?! ...and the answer came to me..cuz im afraid to b happy..i got hurt once...or mayb twice...or a lot of times but i didn't let go..and im afraid to b hurt again...and i dont want that anymore...the 2 cups of coffee i took in the morning are talking as u can see... im going shopping with some friends right now...yeii...so later people..!