i'm getting increasingly frustrated that i never get to see the guy i'm "dating." he lives in downey and is a very busy guy (with school and work and stuff), but still. he should want to make time for me. when i suggest we just be friends instead (since i never get to see him) he gets mad. i know he likes me a lot, but he doesn't seem to understand that i need affection. 4 days a week he works at like 4am, and 4 days a week he has school til like 9pm. i get up early so i dont want him coming over super late. plus since he would be driving all the way down here to see me i would feel obligated to let him stay the night. which i wouldn't mind, except that i can't fall asleep with someone next to me, which means i'd have to go to work in the morning off of no sleep. not going to happen. this is why i don't want to be exclusive with him. yet he thinks it's cuz i "want to bang other guys." i pick fights with him a lot because i'm a crazy person and seem to always try and drive guys away. there's more that i could talk about but i think it's time to smoke a bowl and go to bed. goodnight.