i don't have the energy to go into detail but last night was pretty bad. ktwentysomething (i forget his number but he's the one who asked my bro for permission to date me and promised him he wouldnt break my heart then did the opposite) came over last night. me him and my best friend were drinking then she went to the living room to sleep where she always does. thats when he got aggressive and i eventually started hooking up with him because it was easier than fighting him off of me. i told him several times to not kiss me on the mouth because it's too personal. he kept grabbing my face and forcing me to kiss him. i told him not to leave any hater marks because hickies are tacky but he did anyways. and at one point he hit me and that's when i kicked him off of me and walked out of the room. i was in such shock, didn't cry or yell or anything. just came back to my room sat on my computer chair and asked him to leave several times before he finally did. the whole thing was so surreal. granted he didn't hurt me or anything but still. i feel like i've reached a new low with the way i let guys treat me. i could barely tell my best friend what happened the next morning cuz i'm embarrassed that i would let something like that happen. i feel like i bring this shit on myself. he texted me today saying sorry and that he wants to take me out to dinner on wednesday...i told him no. oh and my favorite part of the whole night was before that when he took the condom off without my knowledge then afterwards said that i better still be on birth control. everything about last night was just so surreal. he's never acted like that before and i never want to be alone with that fool again.