well my moood is actualy like 5000 things shocked, stupid, mad, and soooo many oder freakin things wow its all my fault i shudnt have done ahh wow i make no sence but like wow i feel so bad cuz they dont even know eachoder! goddamit ok 3 freakin years of tryin and tryin and how does thta wrok out! bum ubm bum it doesnt!! instead the 1 "thing" not even preson who how why OMG noo not now not the day after i realized wat i realize plz god no! no! im srying rihgt now and my eyes r blury so i can barley c wat im typing but itt all makes sence 2 me even tho no1 else will probally understand it but w.e that doesnt matter to me at all all that matters is that i know it ws so stupid of me 2 wait until yesterday to realize how i have felt for the longest time and that everything was right there......but now its not..its gone and idk 4 how long or even if i'll really want it baq bcuz i dont know if it wants me which i dont tinhk it does wait not i dont think i know it doesnt! but w.e its all goodlife goes on u get over the stupid mistake su made and the stupid ppl that u hate! well im gunna go even tho i'll bbl cuz i know that im gunna have more 2 write. No reason to complain It’s not like he knew at all I just ignore all the pain As the tears down my face fall Why was I too shy? I should have spoken out Maybe they wouldn’t be together I wouldn’t have this urge to shout They’re so wrong for each other Just Trust me I know it They barley know a thing about one another They have never even met I mean god how can this be I just want to talk to him and see how he’ll react I want to ask him now why her and not me. I wish I had his love, the most important thing I lack. AHHHHH everythings better now well no not rly like not good at all but im a little happy cuz Jamie and Steph made it a bit better wooop woopp lol thank u guys! well i 2g2g bye