blah its been about a weeks and 3/4th's since ryan left and that mans he doesnt come back for another 2 weeks and 1/4 :( lol he wrote me the most awesome;y beautiful letter ever it made me cry :( i miss him soo much and i cant wait for him 2 come home....I think im starting to realize home much he means to me and how bad i want him 2 come home..:( wow lol so sad i keep listening 2 depressing cd's and baking cakes all the time i guess i bake when im depressed. ALso idk y but for some reason im just not in the mood to do things i used 2 like going out wit my friends and stuff :( lol idk how 2 explain it besides just missing him..:( this sucks gosh evil camp lol -Andi