BLAH the 1 thing i didnt want 2 happen happened blah!! i didnt want him 2 know i liked him at alll wow that sux and i told every1 not to tell him and blah! cuz im not even sure if i like him in that way and now im scared things r gunna b ackward and thats te least thing i want cuzz cuz i just dont want that 2 happen and i knew he didnt like me and every1 telling me he did is wat made me think he did but i shud have trusted me and known that no he didnt like me and blah! at least im glad wen i fouound out he idnt like me i was on de fone wit gaby and matt cuz they made me feel monddo better and then like att 10:15 gaby had 2 go and i just talked 2 matt till like 11:45 and that made me feel better and i got my mind off everything and thats good i guess bt as soon as i hung up and went to be i realized dat tommrorw i have 2 c him in 3 classes and like ahhh wow well w.e we'll c wat happens 2 day. You know how ppl say that their diaris are their best friends like not rly but its like therapy and its true i realized this yesterday because on saturday wen i was freaking out i wrote the entry below (#59) and wow i felt sooo much better but last night wen i was trying to write in here it wudnt work it was haveing a gay moment like all night and i felt like mondo worse then saturday so ya THANK U DIARY but thats not all that haelped on saturday i talked 2 jamie a lot and that help and on sunday all my friends helpped 2 but i just wish i cud have written in here blah well at least im writting now lol ummm well wat else OHH YA! i finished my book reprt woop lol i g2g skool bye!