indeed... yes... so today... yearbook day. pretty good for the most part. i felt unloved by him of course. of all the ppl he took pictures of, i dont think he took one of me. oh well. so i'm waiting around w/ my yearbook after jordan gets his and is signing, and jackie goes to him "you know you broke arjays heart saying you didnt like her anymore, even tho she told you she loved you" or something like that. i'm not totally sure... but i waslike... WTF??? so then the stupid fence ripped my pants and i had to have mom come get me so ic ould put new ones on. i completely changed. i put on a not black shirt and not black shoes. then i went back and went into the cafeteria for the rest of the day. i found arjay. she was having ppl sign her boobs. lovely. "chemosabe" signed too, but not ON a boob. eh. got all the sevvies to sign, and harold and mr bell. lovely. then ppl ditched me and i got bored, so i went and sat by arjay and jordan. he signed more on her yearbook, unfortunately. as we left, i looked at arjay and said i want to add somethign to his yearbook. so she told him and got it for me and she's like "ARE YOU GONNA TELL HIM YOU LIKE HIM???!!!" and i said yes so she high fived me and all that jazz. it took her a minute to get him to let me have it, but i wrote in my silver sharpie"sadly, arjay's not the only one that still likes you" and gave it back to him. he didnt' read it utnil he got on the bus. i'm not expecting...well... anything NICE from him. since he was semi-all over arjay. like, he was poking her and once she told him something and he pulled herface toward him w/ his hand on her neck. but then... he also seemed kindof pissed at him in a way. so then as we were walking i wrote, then arjay took it, then jordan took it from her and we walked around more. then johnny came around and arjay made him sign all our yearbooks. so arjay got signed/signed first, then johnny signed mine. then while johnny signed jordans i signed mine(arjay and paul walked ahead) and we half walked back to them, talking sort of. i am so paranoid/nervous/excited to know what he's got to say to me. more than anything tho, scared. oh yeah there's the night games thing tonight too. i wonder if i'll have an opportunity to go or not. oh my god. jordan just got on. holy shit....