oh, so much so... haha. anyway, thursday, NOR yesterday did i talk to him. it makes me very sad. i got in the car where he was sitting on wednesday. now i want to apologize him for having to sit there... it is so uncomfortable. i didnt even try to talk to him yesterday... but i want to so bad. and now, since it is saturday, he is probably at his mom's house. ar was on a little yesterday and tried to talk to my mom a bit. but she didnt reply to my emails. thinking of sending her another. hopefully she'll get on today while I CAN get on. we have a concert for the symphony tonight. so i wont even be home until after 9 probably. ugh. oh well...