the last few days have been kinda sucky... We saw harry potter on sunday... thats about the best thing thats happened. Eric was sad he couldnt come. But he was very happy when mom gave him the giggly springy santa hat. It makes me laugh. I was sick the rest of the time. Stayed home again and went to the doctor. They gave me more pills. Oh joy more temptation. Still ahvent talked to him. It's been a fucking week. Oh well... all in good time I guess.... Meh. Last nigth was bad I took my pilla nd took a shower and put hte safety pin in my knee again. It bled. I hate the needly thing... but I hate the scars. Soooooo anyway Today we basically got out of school an hour early. So arjay and i walked to taco belll with mary. she has a friend now. yay arjay. Poor liz tho. She thinks brett's lying to her and it makes me sad. I miss aleks too but oh well... if he calls he calls but if he doesnt, i guess... uh... oh well...? I will not keep falling. I will not hurt like last time. No.