well its all over now. the start to another fantastically shit covered year has come and gone. and i know it will be shit covered. How, you might ask? after i finished talking to her I sat in the shower and cried int he dark. then i watched bridget jones' diary... at 11:41 i lit a candle... at 11:55, i hugged my cat, made some kind of a wish or something and blew the candle out. i then proceeded to cry some more. if you take away the arjay... and all feelings communicated with her and or jordan.... yesterday fucking rocked. i want green day day to come. fuck man. it is the only worthwhile thing i can really see in my future. but...oh well yes... i must wait until september.