but then uh oh erection break was good and relaxing. i was able to catch up on some much needed sleep and just not worry about anything. i feel healthier. no more constant urge to vomit or bloody noses. i thought about some things and some conclusions. i need to start taking what i can get, i can't afford to be picky, there are few oppurtunities. i also need to start making things happen instead of waiting. up until this point, everything has been my fault and i should accept responsibility. anyway, i gained 3 lbs over break. just more cushion for the pushin'. this weekend is ben kweller, i am excited. fuck prom. i want to try new things. like pot maybe. hmmmm, maybe this is one of those things i need to make happen.