i listened to the nrigth eyes christmas album today, it put me in the spirit, or at least more so. i am hopefully finishing all of my shopping tomorrow. i still have to buy presents for everyone but my dad. i know what i want to get my mom and chris but i can't seem to find either one. it is frustrating. i don't know about my other friends or my sister. i can't really afford to buy presents. i don't know what happens to all of my money, but it disappears so quickly. school is over. i am happy. life is good. i am in a good place right now. i should have rented a movie tonight after work because now i'm bored. i was sure i'd have to work christmas eve, but i am done for the week. thank god. i got in 10 hours and i am satisfied with that. i have been thinking about things and come to certain conclusions about how worthwhile certain hobbies/interests are and i have decided certain things are just not worth the risk they impose. i am trying to not be vague but also not be specific and really i am not saying much of anything at all. i have to cash the christmas money my uncle sent me to pay for presents. why can't i budget better? it shouldn't be so goddamn hard. i love my cats.