i guess i cared more than i thought. still care actually. i wish i didn't. i have no real reason to care. i would like to be done. 2 days of high school left. one month til i am on a plane to dublin. and then to london. where i will see death cab. and drink in pubs. and go to cool museums. and be outside the bubble of fishers. and be away from my parents. and then it is orientation fr iu. and a last few weeks with all my friends. and then college. i still sort of wish i had been a bit more ambitious and actually filled out my evergreen app. or the earlham one. it'd be kinda cool to be going to college without anyone from high school. oh well. i still miss my hair SO much. it is dumb but hey, i cna't help it. why do i like this diary more than xanga? possibly because it feels safer. i want to get my roommate assignment. i am very nervous.