ahhh i hate when people ask what grade i am in and then i tell them i am going to be a senior they ask if i have thought about where i want to go to college, and when i tell them i have no idea they react with shock. college feels so distant. and i am sooo indecisive. i am kind of disturbed that none of the the places i am currently considering seem quite right for me. i wish i weren't so finicky, it would make the decision much easier. i think i need to be back on adderall. maybe i would do more than watch tv all day. i have issues. i avoid awkward situations by attempting to ignore them which only makes them become more awkward.you'd think i would have learned by now.